Thursday, January 05, 2006

Give it up

Anxiety... apprehension... uneasiness... consuming every ounce of her being. Her stomach won't stop fluttering, as if awaiting a first kiss. It drops as it would on a rollercoaster. Anxiety... apprehension... uneasiness... pulling her down, off track. She can't focus. Work is fuzzy. Sleep seems distant. Thoughts haunting the back of her mind... she wants answers. She tries to distract herself, but she can't. Teeth clench. Phone rings. She sighes, not now. Her leg shakes like a dog having his stomach scratched. She clicks her pen like a metronome... click, click....click, click... click, click. She can feel her fellow workers getting aggravated more with each click. Deep breath... IN....hold, count to 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1....OUT... it's not your plan, she says to herself... it's not your plan... it's bigger than you, ALL of it. You are not in control. You can't control it. You can't. Give it up... Give it up... Peace.

"Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you." 1 Peter 5:7

3 comments:

JCR said...

it's all good ;)

Katie said...

don't know what's going on but I'll be praying for you friend

Mark D said...

One of my favorite chapters of the Bible is Proverbs 3.

verses 5 and 6:
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.

verse 24:
When you lie down, you will not be afraid. You will lie down and your sleep will be sweet.

verse 32:
...His secret counsel is with the upright.